Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Today was the second day of the second half of the semester here at Bangor Uni. My flat is very quiet, many of my flat mates have gone home for reading week before their exams on Friday. This is a strange transitional stage that I stand facing now, my stay is exactly half over and things are picking up. I have final assessments to get started on, a solo trip to plan for the end of term, rowing, and bits and pieces of life back in the states to tend to. The weather of late fall here in Wales is not helping me cope with my stresses in the slightest. Today I had morning lecture until one and straight away after that an afternoon lecture until three, and by some act of God my lecture after that was cancelled, which meant I had a bit of afternoon to enjoy. All the while I sat in class the wind outside was howling and the rain was picking up and beating against the roof and pained windows-- the lecture hall was literally throbbing! Unbelievable. (Kaitlyn, Kerry and I had a very nice twenty minute walk home in the poring rain. Soggy shoes, damp clothes, inverted umbrellas oh my! Yuck.) Time for some tea and wool socks.

I am really enjoying my Scaffolding Learning class though. My professor, Fliss Keffyn, is really spunky and cool and is such a breath of fresh air after half a semester with the same old lectures week after week. Fliss was a nursery teacher in England for nearly nineteen years, she worked with very young children some of whom had developmental issues and others that had various emotional hinderances. This gal knows what she's talking about. She's the type of person who wears stripy wool leggings and colorful, bulbous jewelry to lecture; she is very soft spoken and you can tell just from looking at her she is very sweet and gentle with children. She is very neat. I love listening to her lectures because it's like I'm listening to a very thoughtful conversation, not a lecture on the role of the adult in the classroom. Fliss never raises her voice or acts especially bubbly, she just talks talks talks. The things she says are a completely different story! Today we were talking about the environment that children experience when they go to a nursery or classroom for the first time and how the teacher's outfit, scent, and overall presentation is, believe it or not, a very important part of making that environment comfortable for the child. Funny, right?

"If you're wearing groovy socks or groovy shoes then that little person will recognize you by those shoes and socks... the way you go to work needs to be polite to children because you are essentially asking to be let into their world, really."

It all makes sense! I've never thought about early psychology in that manner nor have I realized how keen children are towards such simple sensory objects like shoes and socks. Sheesh! In addition to obscure discussions about shoes and stockings, we had a chance to work with homemade play dough and act as the teacher, observer, and child in a stimulus/motor skills activity. It was quite fascinating! I feel like this class has awoken a new passion in me, perhaps a new avenue for teaching. Occupational therapy? Child psychology? Who knows... at this point I am just a big sponge that's out there soaking up all I can, and man! am I loving it! I have felt especially "right" about my career choices since having come to study early years education at Bangor Uni. I feel like I have learned a lot of fundamentally valuable things that I will keep with me forever and take on with me as I progress towards my goals in teaching. I feel revived and enlightened by what I've been learning and although it has been a lot of work and many late nights lay ahead of me, I feel that this was more than worth it even if it was just for four months. I know that I will return home with a head crammed full of ideas and thoughts and a renewed sense of direction in my studies that remain, groovy shoes and all.

Best,
Zoe


Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Finding "It"



I find myself falling in love with Wales more and more with each day that passes. Every morning I am filled with such an overpowering joy to see the mountains covered in mist and to smell the fresh, salty ocean air. I am so content here that it is hard to think about leaving it all behind in just two short months.

I have discovered so many things about myself and what makes me truly happy in life. The sea, mountains, sheep, endless skies... As I said a few posts ago, I have found that I am much stronger and conscious as a result of having gone away, more so than I ever thought I was capable of. I am so proud of the things I have done and the confidence I have found in doing them.

I have forged such a strong bond with Bangor; I have met wonderful, beautiful and compassionate people, seen stunning vistas and seascapes, and have opened new doors for myself in the future. I know what I want now, not just out of my immediate life but in the long run. I know that I want to travel and meet people, I want to take pictures and create my world out of my discoveries, I know what I need to be happy, I know that I want to teach and that my beliefs in what are good and true in the world exist in me and those I know. It is such a relief to feel this after searching for so long...



Love,
Zoe

Tuesday, October 26, 2010


A sunny afternoon bus ride through the mountains to the wool mill in Trefriw!

Saturday, October 23, 2010

A Day by the Sea

Today was a perfect day. All of my weirdness from yesterday has faded and I'm choosing to dwell on all of the happy things and the fact that my parents are here in Wales for an entire week. We had a wonderful morning beginning with press-pot coffee and some welsh cakes with jam. We talked for a good hour in my cozy little room and then decided to course of our day. We chose to take the bus from Bangor to Llandudno (on the North Eastern coast) despite the early rainshower. A funny little phenomenon that occurs along the coast of the Menai is that no matter where it is raining, Bangor, Conway, Llanfairfechan, Deganwy, the Great Orme (the peninsula on the Northern coast of the Menai Strait that juts out into the Irish Sea) ALWAYS has sun and blue skies. So Llandudno was a good choice on a rainy morning because of it's close proximity to the G.O.

We took the morning bus to the scenic coastal town with brilliantly blue skies and walked along the seaside, picking up little treasures here and there, sea glass, shells, and stones.
We parked ourselves on a bench by the water and ate rolls with local cheese, some fruit and of course, Jaffa Cakes. The town of Llandudno is a very sweet town, nestled between steep mountain cliffs and corseted by the sea it has the feel of a place that time forgot. The tall, turn of the century buildings that line the coast are various shades of soft pink, blue, and sea foam green stucco; the exotic foliage makes one feel like they are walking along a street in the Mediterranean rather than one in the North of Wales. Everything in the town was coated with a thin layer of seasalt, the benches, the doorknobs, even my face!

I am so in love with days like this where time just sort of carries me along and any semblance of an agenda or schedule is thrown away.

After our lunch we walked along the pier out into the water and then swiftly back to shore due to the wind. Mom and I found a little Café and we decided to take a seat and warm up with some tea. It was so lovely to sit and talk with my parents about everything that has been going on in life.
My parents told me all about their travels in Germany; my mom spoke fondly of her days there in high school and college and how good it felt to have gone back and seen people and places from her past. I am so happy that they were able to get out of the states and take some time for themselves to travel and have fun, they are more than worthy of such a break!

We boarded the afternoon bus back home to Bangor, tired but happy. Tomorrow we are planning another day out, perhaps to Conwy (Con-way) which lies just North East of Bangor on the coast. It is a nice little town with a castle and a beautiful harbor. Now, onto more important things: evening tea.


XO



Friday, October 22, 2010

Today Felt Like Christmas

My parents have safely made it to Bangor, just in time for the fall rain. Perfect.
I am happy they are here and in two whole, motherly and fatherly pieces. Last night I was a whirling dervish because they hadn't called all day to check in after traveling from Traben-Trarbach to Neu Anspach on the AUTOBAHN. For God's sakes. I was so worried! After driving on the autobahn with Annie in Hamburg I shuttered to think about my parents driving stick shift on that hell-way. I talked with one of my girlfriends, Raphaela, who is German and knows alllll about the crazy drivers in her country. She was so sweet and talked me down,"You know what?! I know exactly how you feel, sometimes my parents just blow me off all together and don't reply to my emails or calls... I don't think they understand that kids can get just as worried and nervous as parents can." Oh Raphi. But she was so right! I always worry about my parents and if they are okay. Maybe it's the only child thing? It's just me, so, if something happened, it would be just ME! Freaky stuff, man.

Anyhew, parents are here and they are happy but very tired from the long train ride down from Manchester. I went and met them at the train station and we got a cab to their Bed and Breakfast. Once they were all settled we walked down the road to the Tap and Spile Pub and got some dinner. I am so excited to show them where I've been living and tell them about all the things I'm doing/have done. Tomorrow we are going to catch a train or bus out of Bangor to Caernarfon or Lamberis to see castles and the Saturday markets. I must say that as overjoyed as I am to see my parents it is strange having them here. It's like a collision of two of my worlds "Bangor, meet Marquette." I think it is because I have just pictured myself here and no one else, not any of my friends or family, just me doing this alone, flying solo. It's one of those silly things that really isn't such a big deal but it makes you feel a little funky and out of sorts. Until I saw them at the train station this afternoon their trip to see me was more like a possibility and not an actual reality. So, I pretty much freaked out and started tearing up when I hugged them. I forgot how good it feels to get a big ole hug from my mom and how easy it is to sink into my tree of a dad. I have missed them so so much. It is going to be a fantastic week!


Best,
Zoe





Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Piecing Myself Together

Somedays I can't believe where I am. The things I see and the places I go feel like they are part of a dream. Like tonight, for instance, on my walk home I saw pink mountains floating in a blinding sunset just over the peaceful sea. At moments like this I can't help but shake my head and say to myself "Damn, Zo. Look at this. Look where you are." This has been the mantra of my life for the past month and a half; constantly in wonderment of what surrounds me and at peace with things. Several things. I never thought that I would make it here to this place to live this life. I have found such strength and pride in myself that I never thought I was capable of.

So many things have happened in the past month since I have written. I am all settled in my flat with my friendly and giggly flat mates. I have made some wonderful friends from all over the world and have had many chances to travel. For the past three weeks I have been an absolute fiend! North Wales, Liverpool, Dublin, Edinburgh, Anglsey, the list goes on. This is the first full week since orientation that I have had in Bangor. I can feel the effects of such concentrated travel, tho. When I got home last Sunday from Scotland I slept a good 14 hours and needed a full day without shoes. But, every minute has been worth it.

All of these places have opened my eyes and my heart. I know that I have been changed forever by this experience-- as someone once said to me, quite matter-of-factly, "You will not be the same person ever again." And I didn't believe him at first, but now, I see that in fact, I won't be the same person ever again. Some mornings when I am just waking up I realize that my life is completely different just as a result of having come to Wales and I know, deep down that the things I will do in my life have been shifted and reassembled in a different way than before.

I AM SO READY TO LIVE! and to live confidently, and wildly, and creatively as the woman I am.

XO




Monday, September 27, 2010

Keepin' on Keepin' on


Monday September 27th

This is my first entry from Bangor and I have been here an even two weeks. Everything is wonderful and much greener than I had expected! Unfortunately, I have been sick with a nasty little cold that just doesn't seem to want to leave me be since arriving here. So, all my energy has been going towards sleeping, drinking tea, and trying to get better! Despite the cold though, I have managed to do some really fun things and have met many wonderful people.

My first day here was pretty crazy. It started with Annika, Alaina and I, once again, crammed into Annika's car speeding down the Autobahn in the poring rain, and I mean POURING rain. This stuff was torrential. When we got to the Hamburg airport at 6 a.m. I had to sprint to my terminal in order to catch my plane to Manchester (which I barely made.) Once on the plane tho, I had a brief panic attack because I wasn't sure if it even was the right plane (which is totally bogus because that is nearly impossible to pull off... anyways blame it on lack of sleep.) I got into Manchester at a quarter to eight and was able to make it to customs before too long. The line (queue) was such a funny sight, there were a number of families who had just returned from vacation (holiday) and were sporting sandals, big, hibiscus print shorts, dresses, and shirts, super brown tans and seashell jewelry all around me. I must have been quite a sight myself in my fleece jacket, long pants and scarf. When I finally got to the customs desk there was this cranky lady who put me through the ringer and even threatened to "sit me down" because I didn't have "the right" information... anyways, eventually I got through and collected my bearings and bags. I got to the train station with a little bit of time to spare found myself some fruit for breakfast, found a seat on the platform, and let my surroundings settle in.

I boarded the train to Crewe (Crew) at nearly nine and sat next to another student, Andrew, who was from Shanghai and was on his way to go study for a year exchange in Salisbury. He was really funny and definitely took the edge off of being so tired and on a new continent. When we got to Crewe I was only seconds late for my train to Bangor, which as it turns out was quite serendipitous! You see, I wasn't the only student bound for Bangor who missed the train. Diego, from Costa Rica, had also missed the train and was just as ticked as I was. We sat together waiting for a different train that would bring us to Chester and talked about University and what we were doing for the week we had before orientation. Soon enough the train came and we boarded. Chester was just a hop and a skip away but we had to wait yet again for another train that this time would take us directly to Bangor. I met a very nice Irish woman while I was waiting with Diego. Kathleen Greene is, to me, the quintessential Irish-lady. She must have been in her early sixties, gray hair, spunky, loud, but looked like a cuddly grandma-type that you just want to hug. She asked me how my trip had been thus-far and what I was going to do in Bangor. I told her that everything had gone smoothly except for the customs woman who still had me shaking in my Keens. Her response was something like "Oh, don't you listen to her, love. She was probably one of those poor souls who was put on the midnight to 9 a.m. shift and they are never pleasant folk. Plus, I always say in a situation like that 'can't you just be nice? We are all trying to do our best and get along... just smile and be kind to other people, we are all just trying to do our best.' " How about that, just what I needed! I am beginning to think that I have really good luck with finding mom and grandma types when I need a little bit of encouragement or cheering up. So, I took a deep breath of damp air as the train rolled in and got my bags together. Kathleen and I sat very close to each other in the train car, she was sitting with another gray-haired grandma type and I was sitting with a school teacher from the North of Wales who, believe it or not, had studied Waldorf herself for some time. She and I talked about that until she had to get off. Kathleen and I then started up a conversation about knitting which led me to ask about the best place to get yarn in Wales and Ireland. Kathleen made sure that I was well prepared with a list of the best places in Dublin to find wool and fisherman's sweater patterns. She also gave me her address and made sure that I was able to understand her writing. We talked about knitting while the train flew along the green country side of North Wales, past small towns dotting the coast, and pastures filled with happy sheep that seemed to stretch on forever. The mountains popped into view eventually, rising and falling across the horizon until finally plunging into the Irish Sea. When we finally reached Bangor Kathleen wished me good luck and told me to make sure that I took care and had a fabulous time. I stepped off the train and into the bright, warm and welcoming sunshine that was my new life in Wales.

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Everything has gone smoothly since arriving here, aside from this piece of crap cold. I spent a few days at a nice B n B on the main road and was able to walk all around the downtown, orienting myself amidst the huge mountains and the sea. The first day I was invited over to my mentor, Bryn Tomos's, house for dinner. The Tomos's, Bryn, Marian, Cartin, Rhys, and Gwenno are lovely people. They welcomed me into their home and fed me an amazing dinner. It was so nice to have a soft place to land after such an intense day of traveling (with a cold!) They offered me a place to stay before the dorms opened on Saturday, which I graciously accepted.

Bryn is a fascinating person who knows a lot about Welsh education and speaks fluent Welsh himself. On the walk back to the B 'n B where I was staying he filled me in on the past fifteen years of changes that Wales has seen in their education system. For a long time the Welsh language was suffering greatly in schools across the country-- maybe a lack of cultural interest but mostly due to the shrinking number of Welsh speakers and the disbanding of cultural ties-- Welsh was dying out. In the past fifteen years tho, there has been a rebirth of the language and many schools have began teaching either some courses in Welsh or, in some cases, like at the school where Bryn's children go, exclusively in Welsh. This was a major win for Welsh speakers, the country, and Welsh culture. It isn't often that a language can rebound like that when the statistics today say that one language dies out every two weeks... it is truly amazing.

On Friday I went to school with Catrin, Bryn's eldest daughter who is in her final year of school. It was a really fun day! I hung out with Catrin's cute high school friends and went to some classes with her (and let me tell you, I am still no whiz at Chemistry.) The school was pretty small but very well-kept. It was grades 5 to 12 I believe, so you can imagine all of the energy in that place! I was especially flattered to be asked by the head teacher of the school to speak to one of her classes, a sort of "Wales and Beyond" class that dealt with the environment, other cultures, different countries, and education all over the world. They asked me about my education in the states and how Wales was precieved by Americans. It was really funny to hear some of the questions that the students had for me after we were out of class: "Was your high school like the one in 'High School Musical' ?" or "Were there cheerleaders at your school who were like the ones in 'Mean Girls' ?" Yes... I tried to be as honest as possible without laughing too hard but we all thought it was good fun.

That night, after a long day of high school, Catrin, her boyfriend, Sean, Gwenno, and I watched "Calendar Girls" and for the first time I picked up on some inherently British things like Marks & Spencer (which is right down the street from where I am living), Yorkshire (which I can locate on a map now), etc. In place of popcorn we needed of course, as a night cap, to have about three cups of tea each with milk and honey.

Hopefully I will be able to write again soon, I don't want to get out of the habit of posting things!

Take care!

Much love,
Zoe