Somedays I can't believe where I am. The things I see and the places I go feel like they are part of a dream. Like tonight, for instance, on my walk home I saw pink mountains floating in a blinding sunset just over the peaceful sea. At moments like this I can't help but shake my head and say to myself "Damn, Zo. Look at this. Look where you are." This has been the mantra of my life for the past month and a half; constantly in wonderment of what surrounds me and at peace with things. Several things. I never thought that I would make it here to this place to live this life. I have found such strength and pride in myself that I never thought I was capable of.
So many things have happened in the past month since I have written. I am all settled in my flat with my friendly and giggly flat mates. I have made some wonderful friends from all over the world and have had many chances to travel. For the past three weeks I have been an absolute fiend! North Wales, Liverpool, Dublin, Edinburgh, Anglsey, the list goes on. This is the first full week since orientation that I have had in Bangor. I can feel the effects of such concentrated travel, tho. When I got home last Sunday from Scotland I slept a good 14 hours and needed a full day without shoes. But, every minute has been worth it.
All of these places have opened my eyes and my heart. I know that I have been changed forever by this experience-- as someone once said to me, quite matter-of-factly, "You will not be the same person ever again." And I didn't believe him at first, but now, I see that in fact, I won't be the same person ever again. Some mornings when I am just waking up I realize that my life is completely different just as a result of having come to Wales and I know, deep down that the things I will do in my life have been shifted and reassembled in a different way than before.
I AM SO READY TO LIVE! and to live confidently, and wildly, and creatively as the woman I am.
XO
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